I have found that I can have a calmer outlook on things and
critique and evaluate my stream of thoughts from a neutral and dispassionate perspective,
with surprising consistency.
This could be attributed both to conscious mental work and a
normalization of what I believe to be monthly fluctuations of hormones that
tend to turn into week-long episodes.
I do find that I start to get anxious or more impatient various times throughout the
day and I almost let these moments trigger action. Because I had grown so
accustomed to being at the whims of these moods and their prodding, I would
fail to prevent them from instigating behavior which I wished to avoid
completely (when thinking rationally).
It takes willpower, rigorous repetition, coolness, relaxed
logic and a bit of distraction in order to stop streams of thought from
becoming uncontrollable and taking root in emotions.
It is easy to get hopelessly lost in these flare-ups that
occur when mere musings progress into “facts” and attach themselves to explosive
and vulnerable emotions.
It appears to be an uphill battle, constantly at war with my
own mind.
No comments:
Post a Comment