the battle rages on...

He is an intoxicating mix of passion and masculinity that lingers on the brink of aggressiveness, at once both frightening in its unpredictable volatility and deliciously arousing in the submission it commands.

Yet, I could start a collection of vacuous men with fit bodies...the truly worthy endeavor comes in seeking one as equally, if not more, introspective and insatiably inquisitive as myself...which is becoming an increasingly difficult, if not impossible prospect.

They seem to be rare indeed, but I suppose nothing worthwhile is ever easily obtained.

Noam Chomsky debates Michel Foucault

"In the intellectual domain one is faced with the uncertainties that you pose. Our concept of human nature is limited, partial, socially conditioned, constrained by our own character defects, and the limitations of the intellectual culture in which we exist, yet at the same time it is of critical importance that we have some direction, that we know what impossible goals we’re trying to achieve if we hope to achieve some of the possible goals, we have to be bold enough to speculate and create social theories on the basis of partial knowledge while remaining open to the possiblity that in some respects we are way off the mark."

before any action or thought initiates, a collection of neurons in the brain fire...

Last night amidst stoned deliberations, I started to expand my understanding of the meaning I am searching for. It started with the question of free will, if we are not free to make our own choices, if we are being governed at an undetectable level, who or what is doing the governing? It was this question that led to an analysis of our components, starting externally and ultimately leading to infinitely smaller elements, which in turn lead to infinitely larger possibilities, reaching the endless expanse of space. As everything gives way to everything else, in an intricate sequence, one starts to see not exactly the “triviality” of human existence, but its representation in the totality of the chain, its miniscule role, its lack of true reality, arguably illusive. Although it is vital it is only so because of the sum of its parts, it is neither less nor more important than everything else alongside it.