People inadvertently or consciously make decisions that most of the time directly complicate their lives

The idea that life is hard has been ingrained into me

Why does life have to be hard?
You are constantly reminded that a schedule based on leisure is the luxury of youth
So what does that really mean?
The second you graduate college, you’re transformed and become “all business”

I do think that to some degree all people tend to complicate their own existence
Take for example the immigrant population in Freehold, NJ.

They come into the country already at a disadvantage: illegal, cannot speak the language, and most do not know a single soul in a strange country
Do they think it’s wise to make their lives even more difficult by having children?
Frankly, I don’t know what (mostly) Mexican women are thinking.
They seriously get pregnant faster than you can say: automatic citizenship

This occurs in all strata of society, especially Middle America.
Do you really think the joy of driving a gas-guzzling, overpriced, hunk of German machinery will overshadow those extra monthly payments for the next decade of your life?

I think a lot of our lives revolve around preparation
For what?
If you cannot be content in the moment you are in right now, what is the point of being prepared for the next one?
I don’t subscribe to the notion of living one day a time
Because that just sounds futile and wildly inefficient
And also because I do a lot of thinking about the future, most of it involves how I will accumulate enough money to buy the massive amounts of plane tickets that I desire

But in all honesty, what if you take all of this time planning for the future, for a time when you can kick back and enjoy something, or revel in an accomplishment, and you either reach that point in time, and it doesn’t live up to your expectations
Or you’re so stressed and burned out that you don’t even notice it?

I like to think in terms of terminal illness sometimes
As morbid as that sounds

What if tomorrow your doctor told you that you had a tumor which means 6 months of life left for you, give or take

How would you go about your scheduling?
I’m pretty sure you wouldn’t set aside some time for grad school, or worry about getting a corner office with a view

I think life would be much more fulfilling if it was simpler in some aspects
If we didn’t need roots
Which can be anything from real estate, to fair weather friends, to some semblance of a career

We operate under the pretext that we have time
That we are blessed with endless time
Yet at the same time, we know we won’t be around forever
We pollute and we don’t take care of our bodies because we know we are temporary, and no matter how much you recycle or how far away you stay from second hand smoke, nothing will extend your existence that much longer
So who cares if no sea life exists by the year 2050? You won’t be around anyway


I wonder how much more different the world would be if people were still every now and again and listened to their intuitive revelations
Deep down inside you know what you truly desire- and I bet you once you discover what that is, it won't be complicated
it'll be very simple, but very powerful


I know you all experience mental diarrhea (it’s a gross analogy but it’s fitting)
A feeling that punches you in the gut and says: “listen here fuckface, this feels right for a reason”
You want to just run with it
But then you hesitate and are immediately pulled back by misgivings you’ve never had before
Like you knock yourself down before you even get to think about it too long
I think that its moments like those, when your entire body feels it, are real moments
true and born out of something special
transcendent of mankind
something innate that is so organic it merits extreme focus and reverance

I'm not sure how to conclude all of this except with 3 easy words: simplify, simplify, simplify